Potions and their stories.

For the convention that happened last weekend, I did some potions and wrote some stories for them, here they are now in their completion, I hope you enjoy learning about these little guy’s. They are not related to any current or future projects. If I ever incorporate them into any of my meta, they will follow the rules set out here below.

Hope you enjoy. 😀

What I’ve learned from Nanowrimo ’18.


As you can see from the screenshot, the word count at the bottom is 81,668. Kinda of a weird number. But I’ll go with it.

Nonetheless, I won Nanowrimo this year, yay! What do I win? Absolutely nothing, and that’s wonderful.

As for the future, right now I’m taking two days off two just recharge and play some video games watch a movie, or TV shows. And in December, I’ll be working on this other novel that I have planned, let’s call it book for now, and I’m planning on looking for traditional publishers for that one. It’s a middle grade series, so nothing to do with this one.

My Nanowrimo 2018 novel is called, In Vita Mea. It’s a latin phrase which roughly translates to kill or be killed, I don’t know if it really means that, I didn’t have enough time to do actual research, I read it somewhere, and said yeah it fits.

I’ll summarize the story, Danny a just legal (18) gay boy, he is living his normal life, one day he get’s a massive headache that transports him to a world where 99% of the population is gay, the other 1% get’s thrown into Sweden where they live a perfect life, he embodies his own body put in a different timeline, now Danny can get all the boy’s to come to his yard.

Terrible blurb, but I’ll go with it. The story is very adult, (3 sex scenes) but at one point it takes a right turn and suddenly the book touches topics of sexual abuse, ungratified partners, and a society that’s filled by an unclenching sex drive, that tears itself apart. And to be honest, that scares me, because I don’t even know if I’m a good enough writer to portray abuse with the sensibility it needs to not be glorified. I did research how to write about abuse but that’s about it. I feel like I don’t have such sensibility because I’ve never been the victim of abuse myself, but I have seen my best friends go through the aftermath of it. So I guess that’s what I tried to do here as well. The scene where Danny get’s physically assaulted is not portrayed, it’s implied that it happened, but I don’t physically make you read about it, I make you read about the aftermath, which is what I know best.

Anyway, I think I’ll never look for a publisher for this because as I wrote it I was just going through the motions, I wasn’t actually enjoying writing it, especially because I was constantly comparing it to book, which has over 20k words of just pure lore. So yeah, I don’t know compared to the other things I’m working on right now, this fails in comparison.

It’s a contemporary, and I’ve never been a big contemporary reader, I see the appeal, but why go into fiction to read about normal people, I would rather escape into another world, but that’s just me. Some people use contemporary novels as a away to cope between worlds, and that’s totally okay. We all have different views and opinions and that’s what makes our world rich. We just need to learn to listen to each other in a way that’s actually good. Not just wait for our turn to speak.

But that’s just me

Here are some things I’ve learned.

  • You’re outline is shit.

That’s right, you wrote an outline, and you’re way deep into act II and suddenly you realize, that Act III of your outline is now Act II, how did this happen? Well this happened to me, halfway through the book I’ve realized that I didn’t write enough on my outline. And I needed to write more, which I did. I had to revise my outline, and that was the worst. Going back to it in the middle of the book, is probably not a good idea.

  • Check yo tense

That’s right, are you writing in past or present tense, future tense? How would that even work. Anyway, it’s just as simple as checking your said he said, he says. See it’s easy.

  • Writing every day 2500 words is exhausting.

You know you better fricking love the characters and the world if you’re writing that many words about them every day. My goal in life is to someday reach 5k words a day, but maybe it’s because I’m an overachiever. I got close to that number in the final days of Nanowrimo, topping 4k words on the 28th, and almost 4.5k on the 29th. I really wanted to finish and have the rest of the 29th and 30th all for me. I was tired of this word and this character’s, I just wanted to finish.

  • I don’t love this book.

Sadly I don’t, I thought it would be a good fit for my Nanowrimo because I’ve been writing gay erotica for like, ever since I was 13, and been posting it online, people gave me good feedback, so I thought If I was going to write a book, I might as well be about gay people. In my frenzy to find an idea, I put the isekai trope on its head? (Not sure about that part) Who am I kidding, I just made it yaoi.

  • Made me appreciate book more

Book is the book I’m excited about, I’ve finally mustered up the courage to write it, and basically I’ve had the protagonist of the book with me ever since I was in high school, (almost 11 years now) so you know I absolutely adore him. In case you’re wondering no, book is not about gay people, in fact the romance it has, is primarily straight. (it’s middle grade) I do plan to talk about unrequited gay love, and I am an expert on unrequited love, so you might want to check that out someday. I’m worried about the reception that it might have, but my main cast is already really diverse, (POC, Deaf characters) and I’ve made some preparations in the lore so that it makes sense when this gay character is introduced. I’ve written some scenes for book, test scenes that is, and as I write them and then read them, like this weird smile comes on my face, because for the first time I can see them, I can see them in my head, and I feel like they are real people. I might just start crying as I type this, but I do feel like that. To me my cast of book is real.

  • Never gonna publish this.

Sorry to tell you, but In Vita Mea is never, ever, going to see the light of day. I mean of course unless I get someone to give me their opinion on the sensibilities of abuse in this book, otherwise, no you’re never going to read it. NEVER!

  • This shit was stressful.

It really was, I even got a grey hair on my beard. Maybe I’m just old.

All right, from me, that’s it. I hope you have a wonderful day, thanks for reading my blog post! 🙂

-remember that you’re lovely because you are.